What if things had come to a different end
I got the plans we always had
On my own
It's a bitter reassurance that it's really what I wanted
Indeed
I know you were wrestling with complications

Last I heard your voice, we were to speak again
I let it go
When you had the accident
Open, gaping hole waiting for the resurrection
That never came

Maybe you lost your breath that night
Still haunted by it
I've played it back a hundred times
Still with no closure

Worried for you
For our shared dependencies
I wiggled free without you
But I've no idea your condition
The circumstance from which
You dream

Quietly I agonize
Because I know
Your fight and self-infliction
No need to lie for the past
Just keep the future clean
Love means everything

These things happen for a reason